Decisions

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I'm a senior this year and my life has been very busy applying for colleges, trying to survive the classes I'm taking, and working through debate tournaments. This year has been very successful so far in debate. My partner and I won third at the last tournament and I won fifth place in speaker points. I also won fourth place in impromptu speaking and third place in parliamentary debate speaker points. My classes have been going well. I am currently enrolled in a college class from PHC. It is SO hard but with God's grace, I am getting through it.

Unfortunately, in the last several weeks, some things have been coming up that have really tested my patience and maturity. I had a friend who accused me of something I didn't do and another friend lie to an authority figure. Both of these circumstances have been dealt with but I am still left worried. In the first situation, my relationship with that friend has become rocky. I know that she is immature and is just acting on her emotions, but it still frustrates me. I had to make the decision whether it was worth it to stick around and work it out or just walk away and let the relationship grow cold. My mom made some of the decision for me (she worked it out with the mom...hopefully) but I really decided that a close relationship would only bring me down instead of building up my maturity. That was a hard decision. Yes, I will remain friends with her but we won't be trading secrets.
In the other situation, a friend (who is a middle school student leader with me at my church) lied to an authority figure about a circumstance and what she was going to do. In front of the middle school girls that we lead. I was shocked and it bothered me for the rest of the party. Eventually, I had to make the decision about what to do. I decided going to the authority figure and telling him the truth was the best thing to do. So I did that next morning. It was hard and I'm still worried about what's going to happen but I know I did the right thing.

In the next few months, I'm going to have to make a lot of decisions about my future and the kind of person I am going to become. It's going to be hard and they will be big decisions but I know that with God's help and guidance I will make the right choice. I just hope I will know what that right choice is when the time comes.